Wisconsin!

I can't seem to keep up with the crazy vacation I had.
First PA with: Philly, Washington D.C., and then the Beach House, LBI, NJ. And we went to Zach's family reunion. Woot Woot! It was near Milwaukee, Wisconsin.

and it's all a little crazy so I may get days wrong, but hey it's the memories that count.

2 days drive: my favorite part was when Harley and I were out playing on a dirt road, I picked him up to show him the passing trucks (he loves "Cars") and as we waved one honked in response! (My inner child was VERY please.) With several lunch, and souvenirs stops we made it a 2 day trip. Pros: I sat next to Zach for the most part, read, watched shows, and played word games with the people in the car. Plus we got to harass the other car via Walkie Takie. Cons: Poor car-sick Davidson, and my tailbone really hurt after sitting so long.

1st day there was Zach's Birthday!
Zach turned 19 (happy late birthday love!) We met up with Papa Forciea's family--really awesome people, all the men mostly bald, and had a very enjoyable time, plus Uncle Dave makes EXCELLENT brats. Yum. AND we visited THE BEACH! It was totally wicked. It made me really miss the ocean and being at LBI. I loved watching my nephews play in the water, and how Ciara almost cried at how beautiful the lake was. Really awesome moment, and no warning either. We thought we were hiking a green trail.... and .... there was a lake ahead of us. Awesome.
To close out the night all the women folk went to Jen's baby shower (she is adorable preggers, with a girl on the way!)

2nd Day--Prep for fam-bam reunion, meeting more awesome Forciea clan, and back to the beach. Even though it wasn't as great the 2nd time it was still wonderful going. This time by Ciara's accounts the fish were "mating" which I guess would explain why they were all laying at the surface looking like they were dead. I still put my feet in and helped (a little) with the sand castle. Love Sand.

3rd Day- FORCIEA "Forsha" July. Totally awesome. There at 11, and saw them string the pig to the pole and put it over the coals. It was very nummmmmyyyy later. My most favorite memory was everyone looking at the scrapbooks, I had only seen one picture of the Forciea grandparents, so it was really cool seeing who they were and there beautiful smiles on the pictures. Plus the ooohhhhsss and aaaahhhhhhssss were fun.

Lets see more to cover later:

Brewers Game
The Zoo
Downtown Milwaukee and the museum and library
....and soooo much more.

I love my Forciea Family!

With Love From Philly

Coming back to PA after 4 years I've really begun to realize how little memory I have...of anything. I think it comes from having to remember so many names in the family. :P Point being, I really need to write about this trip and the wonderful time Zach and I are having. We have been to Philadelphia, Washington D.C., and now Barnegat LBI, New Jersey. It's been a fun filled, horrendously tiring, absolutely wonderful experience. Not only have we seen incredible sites but, we have had a chance to really go on adventures, and learn more about each other. So here goes.... A journal of Zach and I's vacation back east.

I got to Philly on June 1st, around 11:45 at night, I wasn't flying with Zach because I came out 10 days early to take photos for my Aunt Joylyn and soon-to-be Uncle Paul. After sleeping 4 and a half hours I got back up and headed for the DC Temple with my Uncle Jeffry, and Aunt Dawnita. When Joylyn and Paul got out of the temple they both simple: glowed. He looked at her lovingly, she smiled more brightly then I've ever seen, and together they were a beautiful couple. I took them around the temple for pictures then we all had lunch. The following day I edited, printed, and framed some really beautiful pictures for them. (Proud niece that I am!) The following Saturday evening they had a wonderful reception. It was in the back of the Kline's house (My Aunt Jessica, and Uncle Eds) Uncle Jeffry put together an enormous cup-cake-cake, and Justin & Inc did the catering. There was cookies, sandwiches, cupcakes, and a random assortment of finger foods. Altogether everything went splendid, one of the ward sisters who was attending did trip on accident but it ended ok, seeing as my new Uncle Paul is a Doctor (currently interning, but soon to be official doctor.) I took pictures, and socialized. . . Most people when I introduced myself knew my mother and proceeded to tell me how cute I looked as a baby. Lol. :D After family gift opening, and tearful goodbyes the busy week was over. And I finally got some good sleep.

The next exciting thing to look forward was to ZACH ARRIVING. (Believe me, it was exciting!)

More to come.

Altogether Unsure

It's a beautiful thursday afternoon. and I'm awefully unsure of myself... or the future. I decided this week I want to become: and Ultrasound Tech, 3 more years of hard competitive school in front of me. So I am transfering to UVU, and taking more pre-reqs before I transfer to SLCC, for my DMS (diagnotic medical sonographer.) The biggest news is Zach is joining the Marines. He told me Tuesday, and it's not just a maybe, he is signed up for the ASVAB, and a full physical this weekend. I don't know what to think. I am happy he is moving forward with something he feels is right, but it's going to be tough. Probubly more so for him, but it's going to affect me as well. If he decided to go he would be going delayed entry reserves, leaving for bootcamp this October. He wouldn't be home for Christmas. Part of me wants to cry, and part of me wants to be happy. I've been doing the whole long distance thing for a while, but not without talking or seeing each other. Surviving bootcamp as the girlfriend is going to be rough. Hopefully Megan and I (my best friend from college) can live together, and help each other. (In otherwords, she helps me.) So here is too the future, and the changes to be made. :D

Update.

Hello hello!

Life is grand. It may take you in unexpected directions, but you still have to appreciate the adventure.

Good News:
-I recieved a full tuition scholarship to UVU! woot woot.
Bad News:
-I still have absolutely NO idea what I want to do with my life.

I do know I want to be: A mother, continue to do photography, a artist (Not a starving artist though.) More recently I have considered becoming a registered nurse. Only problem with this is 1stly-I'm afraid of hospitals. In all my life I have been to a hospital maybe 5 times. 2ndly-I'm not sure I want to take all the hard class, like Chemistry. I'm sure I can do great, but do I really have to take that class?
Other options I have considered:
-Teacher
-Going into Business Administration/Coordinating

What I do NOT want to do:
-Fast Food
-Major Sales Corporations: ie Walmart.
-Cleaning Jobs: (Other than the temporary one's and the one's involved with motherhood.)

In another direction:
My mother and I are training for a 10K. Her more than I. I just jog occasionally. Fortunatly I'm getting in good enough shape that I think given the whole month of may I will be able to run a 10 K pretty easily. Over spring break I almost got to 3 miles. Half way there. (A little under half way there.)
Goal: I want to be 160 lbs for my 20th birthday. That is the best gift I could give to me. (Emperors new groove: It's my birthday present from me! Oh I'm SOOO happy!)
Plus, if I can get down to 160 Zach has no choice but to buy me a digital and we are going to get proffesional pictures done. (Which he promised to do back during christmas! :P)

Goal: Figure out who I am.
Not as easy as it sounds. Sometimes I feel so lost in things like: Moral beliefs, Political Views, and Being ok with those decisions. Here in Utah it's hard figuring out what I believe. When I say one thing that I feel deep down is correct a lot of people disagree with me. It disgusts me that the generation I live in is so
Complacent: "Marked my self-satisfaction especially when accompained by unawarness of actual dangers or deficiencies."
So many of of us are willing to let politics, beliefs slide. The earth, the government, all are going to hell in a handbasket if the younger generation doesn't step in. The generation before us rallied against the wars, the decisions in school. We text, we don't buy gas for one day. Big whoop. Something needs to change.

...Thanks for listening. <3 you all!-Me

Laughing until I cry. :D

The older I get the worse my memory becomes. My childhood memories, are blobs, and even last week is hazy. Apparently I'm a drugless druggie, with no memory storage. (!)

"I pee in you bed"

Related to me by a histerical mother and sisters is this story of Ephriam, 2nd to youngest, and quiet the character.

Apparently Ephy wasn't having a very good night, he had been crying and screaming. Joelle (my younger sister.) took him down to her bed and tried to get him to calm down and go to sleep... When Ephraim finally realized he was not going anywhere he momentarialy stopped crying, looked at Joelle, and with attitude said: "I pee in'youw bed." Joelle, checking the sheets, said "nah-uh, you didn't pee in my bed." that happened 3 more times until Joelle felt around him again to find that yes, he (proudly) had peed in Joelle's bed, and had promptly gone to sleep.

Now everytime he goes up to mom after sleeping in Joelle's bed, and having an accident, he says with attitude: "I pee in'hur bed!"

(Your missing out on the head bob, Ephraims accent, and the repeating of the line "I pee in youw bed" ... come over and you will get the full laughable story.)

Stepping into Procrastination

I should probubly start blogging more often, I don't keep a journal, and honestly I hate posting on facebook ALL the exciting things I experiance in life.

So this is my catch up:

1. I've lost 30 lbs in the past 5 weeks. I started the HCG diet, stuck too it, and (winningly) lost! It's been rough and maintenance is going to be hard, but I'm going to finish this and never look back at that weight.

Why you may ask? I want to be active again. Zach, my sweetheart is active and I would like to have an active family. I want to camp, hike, do martial arts, climb rock walls, and really experiance life.

I feel I'm somehow changing with this weight loss, I feel happier, more loved, more accepting, and ultimatly more confident in me. Seperation (long distance relationship folks!) is easier to deal with and I look in the mirror now and I'm very happy.

My next goal is to run a 5K or 10K by May/June-ish. I can do it! (Plus I can eat whatever I want in those situations!)

2. I'm falling in love. Being in love is wonderful! Zach and I have been dating for a 1 and a half now, how was I not in love? The first year of a relationship is trully the honeymoon phase, it's romantic, filled with butterflies and kisses. We are past that stage. We have argued. We have fought. We've have not spoken to each other for a week. But through those hard parts of a relationship, something even more beautiful has begun to blossom. Real love, the kind you only understand through his touch, the way you speak to each other, and the way you love even a 100 miles apart. It's indescribable (YES, I'm a hopeless romantic!) and amazing. I know Zach so much better than when we first started dating, we disagree on things, but we understand each other, we can share anything together and ultimatly he is the person I hope to spend the rest of my life with.

3. I'm going on vacation to Pennsylvania and Wisconsin this summer! 2 weeks in PA with my Grandparents, enjoying the beach house and touring Philly, and DC. and 2 weeks in Milwakee with Zach's family reunion (Forciea July :P) To be blunt: I'm SO EXCITED!

4. I am going to be graduating this spring! Finally I did it! After dropping out a semester, and going to summer school I am finally going to get my asscociates degree. I'm not sure what exactly I am going to study but I will finish this! (Goal in life: Finish things you start!)

5. I love the people in my life. I love my family, Every single stinking one of the. I would not be the person I am today without the trials I had growing up. I love my Dad, he may never read this, but I love you Dad. I'm sorry for any problems I have caused. Although we may not get along in any form of the word, you are my Father, and a GREAT one at that. You have shaped me to be much more than I ever imagine. and to my Mother, thank you for supporting my every decision, even the ones you weren't so keen on. I love being the oldest. It is so wonderful to know so many beautiful spirits sent from God to be with this family. I am trully privilaged in a way most do not understand. I love my (future) extended family. The Forciea family has taught me so much. I no longer need to care about what others think (I sometimes still do...) The only thing that matters is me and God. Secondly they taught me to relax. Zach especially has taught me that life is not a rush to the end. Rather it is something to enjoy, suprises and all. I am thankful they like me, it would really suck not be liked by the family of the man I love. :D. and lastly I love those who are my friends. Many have helped shape who I am today, challenging me with problems, and teaching me through example.

6. I have realized I want to get sealed in the temple.

I am not an active member, and my faith is tried greatly, but I know families should be forever, and I want my future family to be forever. I can't imagine a world without the one's I love dearly.

7. I am going to start bloggin more.

I hope you enjoyed?

Confusion

It feels like every couple of months I go through this problem.
Where am I going in life?
What do I want to do with my life?
How am I going to get there? and Enjoy it on the way?

I don't seem to be able to finish anything I start, I've (maybe) finished 1 journal, homework assignments, and quick spirnt things, but never have I been able to really change and do something, accomplish something big. That is probubly why I am still over weight. I don't have the patience to work day by day to change. It's the hardest thing for me to be patient. let things just happen. I want things to happen NOW, I want change to begin IMMEDIATLY. I can't stand waiting and waiting and waiting. Big problem in my life.
Why did I drop out of college after 1 sememster? I missed Zach, I felt like I didn't have any friends, I was bored of school, I didn't have the money, I wouldn't take out a loan, I didn't have a car, good cell service, and the list went on. Why did I go back to college for summer? I was bored, I wanted to move out of the house, I hated hated hated my job, and I wanted to get my associates. Now almost finished with summer school I am once again feeling the same feelings but also mixed in is the feeling of heading in the wrong direction.
Is college even worth it? I am a smart, hard working, driven individual and I can't even figure out what I want to do carreer wise. It's very agrivating.
I'm sick of not knowing where I am going in life.
Am I going to become a teacher, a firefighter, an emt, a dental assistant, a stay at home mom, a writer, a photographer, an artist, a hobo. I don't know. and with that I have no idea if college is the right thing. It sucks not knowing where everything is going. If I want to become a photographer shouldn't I be taking a vocational approach? looking for people to intern with, charging for photography and working towards learning more about photoshop, manipulation etc? I just don't know.

I'm seriously lost.