It feels like every couple of months I go through this problem.
Where am I going in life?
What do I want to do with my life?
How am I going to get there? and Enjoy it on the way?
I don't seem to be able to finish anything I start, I've (maybe) finished 1 journal, homework assignments, and quick spirnt things, but never have I been able to really change and do something, accomplish something big. That is probubly why I am still over weight. I don't have the patience to work day by day to change. It's the hardest thing for me to be patient. let things just happen. I want things to happen NOW, I want change to begin IMMEDIATLY. I can't stand waiting and waiting and waiting. Big problem in my life.
Why did I drop out of college after 1 sememster? I missed Zach, I felt like I didn't have any friends, I was bored of school, I didn't have the money, I wouldn't take out a loan, I didn't have a car, good cell service, and the list went on. Why did I go back to college for summer? I was bored, I wanted to move out of the house, I hated hated hated my job, and I wanted to get my associates. Now almost finished with summer school I am once again feeling the same feelings but also mixed in is the feeling of heading in the wrong direction.
Is college even worth it? I am a smart, hard working, driven individual and I can't even figure out what I want to do carreer wise. It's very agrivating.
I'm sick of not knowing where I am going in life.
Am I going to become a teacher, a firefighter, an emt, a dental assistant, a stay at home mom, a writer, a photographer, an artist, a hobo. I don't know. and with that I have no idea if college is the right thing. It sucks not knowing where everything is going. If I want to become a photographer shouldn't I be taking a vocational approach? looking for people to intern with, charging for photography and working towards learning more about photoshop, manipulation etc? I just don't know.
I'm seriously lost.
