September Goals

I have a couple goals for September that I need to write down:

1. Create a good schedule and follow it. Including doing homework, laundry, and a work out/eating schedule.

2. Start loosing weight again. Goal: weigh 145-150 by the time Zach is out of boot (around the end of March.) I am starting it now. I am going to watch my calories, and begin running again. If it's unsuccessful I will probably do the HCG again over Jan-Mar. The Forciea women and I have made it a competition. The first 2 to loose the given amount of weight, to reach there goal weight will be taken out to dinner and bought a new outfit. Woot woot! I would like to win this! We will have to see though cause I'm swamped with school.

For now thats all :D

Anatomy and other such classes.

Officially 3 weeks into school. It's fun but crazy busy. I work about 20 hours a week at the Computer Science Labs, and I am taking a full schedule. Soooo tiiiiirrrrrreeddd. Anatomy has me studying a lot, and my other classes I put in a little bit here and there. It's not so bad. Just a lot to take in.

Zach is officially becoming a Marine. He got his medical waivers and swore in the middle of August. He is now a poole waiting to ship to boot. His official date to go to boot is January 3rd (Yay! He will be here for the holidays!) but, there is always a chance he will get sent in October. :( I'm going to miss him, but the idea is no longer foreign and he is doing what he wants to do. Which makes me extremely happy.

My mother is due in December, for all of you who don't know. It's going to be interesting to be the oldest of 14. We really need to get family pictures done soon. Very soon. Everyone is growing up so fast. Another year is beginning to come to a close and so much has happened. Crazy life.

I like my new apartment. I live at the Branbury with my best friend Megan. It's nice, I'm just not home a lot to enjoy it. We have a pool there, which makes weekends a blast, and a bathroom to ourselves, which makes the getting ready easy.

now, if you will excuse me I need to get back to studying anatomy!

Update: Summer Vacation

So much has happened over this summer:

-Philly: Wonderful time with family, philly cheese stakes, kissing under the "love" sign. Seeing Independence hall, going to movies, and a wonderful wedding reception.

-DC with Zach: Walking the entirety of the mall. Eating a snack on the lawn of the Lincoln Memorial, seeing amazing things at the museums, seeing art, considering napping on the statues park lawn, and finally a memorable view of everything from capitol hill.

-LBI, New Jersey: sleeping in until 11, an early morning walk on the beach, outdoor

showers, rook, uh well, and stupid until 2 in the morning. So much food, such a beautiful lighthouse, and some wonderful time with Zach just watching the sun, the clouds, and the waves.

Going back east was amazing, I'm so sad that it's already over. My favorite part, other than the alone time with Zach, was spending time with the family at dinners. The stories were wonderful, the food was wonderful, the company was best.

Wisconsin:

The drive: a 2 day drive, that had everyone not so happy by the end. Walkie talkie names, Nebraska bandit mom, "S*** hole" Wyoming, and souvenirs galore. Alphabet games, direction readings, and a very mosquito infested area on the way. My favorite memory was walking with Harley, we did the honking motion to a truck and he honked for us! It made me very happy.

Family reunion: Awesome day. Picture taking, picture sharing, volleyball, trampoline jumping, ping pong playing, roasted pig, and beer. My favorite was watching Peggy and Amy sharing pictures, Dani came close to tears, and everyone was amazed at the family resemblance. I also enjoyed directing the family picture. It was crazy.

Wisconsin: We went to the Michigan lake beach, played, threw rocks, and Harley couldn't get enough. Ciara cried when we saw what looked like the Ocean. It was beautiful. Made me miss the real beach back east. We also went to downtown Milwaukee, to the HUGE library, awesome museum (I loved the live butterfly exhibit), and just seeing the sites of the area. We also went to a baseball game, which the Brewers won! and to the Zoo, which we didn't even see all of it after a very long, but fun day. Favorite memory: being in the museum, we were walking through the fertility statues and Allison looked at me and told me to stay away from them...seeing as my mother has already had 13 of us. he he.

The 4th at Marys: We had delicious food, and swam all afternoon in the little pool. Harley would not get out of the pool, even after almost 2 hours. Decidedly he is a little fish. Talked, played beanbag toss, and shared more pictures. Towards the end Dave and Ralph started stick ice down peoples shirts and pants. It was war. Awkward moment: Coming out of the house, I saw (what I thought was) Zach, and went to give him a hug and kiss. As I slide my arm around him and leaned in to kiss him I realized it was Uncle Shawn. He just looked at my brilliantly red face and started laughing. Whoopppsss.... Everyone got a good laugh out of it.

Date night!: Zach and I decided to have an us night. :D We went to the cheesecake factory, then to B&N before Green Lantern. The theater we went too was kinda creepy, it was nice and all but there was basically no one there. Entertaining moment: as I went to get the seat for our movie Zach gasped and went slightly white and said "I will be right back" and ran. Turned out the hat (Green Bay Packer hat) he had just bought, after falling in love with it (he is SO picky when it comes to hats) was at the restaurant. He had forgotten it. He got it back much to his relief and my laughter.

I loved Wisconsin, I would be lying to say it was all peachy, but time will erase the not so fun details and leave the best ones around. :D

So there. I finally wrote a little bit more about the trip. Not much in comparison to the book I could write, but something.

Now on to school stuff. Ugh...

Its...

The little things.

him kissing and nipping my fingers.

it's his trust in me.

that look that says it all.

that mischievous smile when I know he is being naughty.

when he cuddles next to me and just smiles at me.

the fact that after saying "I love you" a million and one times, he is willing to say it to me again with perfect honesty.

I love my man. It's been a good day.

I love...

My families-Vances and Forcieas: All my brothers are getting older, and a 14th child is on the way in December. I love the way Ephraim talks, and Elijah is finally getting used to me. I love the Forciea family, I may not always be ballsy enough to speak my mind, but I've learned a thing or two. I love my (psuedo) Nieces and Nephews. I've especially gotten close with Harley and Hayden. I love them so. Whenever I am over at there house I get hugs and kisses!

My sweetheart- Zach and I: Not all fun and games but through the tough times we have learned so much. Even after 2 and a half years of dating he has my heart. I've learned patience, humor, acceptance, love, and gotten tough skin. He, well he has gotten a (itty bitty bitty :P) bit nicer, he has learned patience, how to wrestle a girl (among many other things) and he knows how to make me happy. We can now actually argue with each other! I may not be good at the whole "space" thing, but slowly I'm getting better at just having me time. My art and photography really help that. I'm not too excited he is leaving in October but hey, I love him.

My friends-Lisa, Megan, Manda, Dani and Lindsey. I guess this falls under family of sorts. Lisa--My crazy ass lover girl. We have corresponding tattoos, a love for the crazy side, and a need to occasionally read a hot romance novel. Megan--Ex- and soon to be again roomie. The better side of me, the one who helps me socialize, and watches super scary (or dumb) movies with me. Manda-- My theater geeker. The one who always brings Christ into the picture when I forget the importance. Dani-- Sisters (psuedo-in-law) with a whole lot in common. Crazy-movie-quoting-awesomeness, a like for not-so-good-music, and a wit that stings if your not careful. Lindsey the other sis, who loves to poke, and prod me. But is always on the lookout for how to help, and what to buy for birthdays. Plus she is great at finding recipes.

I love the people in my life. They make me happy, they make me want to be better, they drive me nuts.

<3 <3 <3

Wisconsin!

I can't seem to keep up with the crazy vacation I had.
First PA with: Philly, Washington D.C., and then the Beach House, LBI, NJ. And we went to Zach's family reunion. Woot Woot! It was near Milwaukee, Wisconsin.

and it's all a little crazy so I may get days wrong, but hey it's the memories that count.

2 days drive: my favorite part was when Harley and I were out playing on a dirt road, I picked him up to show him the passing trucks (he loves "Cars") and as we waved one honked in response! (My inner child was VERY please.) With several lunch, and souvenirs stops we made it a 2 day trip. Pros: I sat next to Zach for the most part, read, watched shows, and played word games with the people in the car. Plus we got to harass the other car via Walkie Takie. Cons: Poor car-sick Davidson, and my tailbone really hurt after sitting so long.

1st day there was Zach's Birthday!
Zach turned 19 (happy late birthday love!) We met up with Papa Forciea's family--really awesome people, all the men mostly bald, and had a very enjoyable time, plus Uncle Dave makes EXCELLENT brats. Yum. AND we visited THE BEACH! It was totally wicked. It made me really miss the ocean and being at LBI. I loved watching my nephews play in the water, and how Ciara almost cried at how beautiful the lake was. Really awesome moment, and no warning either. We thought we were hiking a green trail.... and .... there was a lake ahead of us. Awesome.
To close out the night all the women folk went to Jen's baby shower (she is adorable preggers, with a girl on the way!)

2nd Day--Prep for fam-bam reunion, meeting more awesome Forciea clan, and back to the beach. Even though it wasn't as great the 2nd time it was still wonderful going. This time by Ciara's accounts the fish were "mating" which I guess would explain why they were all laying at the surface looking like they were dead. I still put my feet in and helped (a little) with the sand castle. Love Sand.

3rd Day- FORCIEA "Forsha" July. Totally awesome. There at 11, and saw them string the pig to the pole and put it over the coals. It was very nummmmmyyyy later. My most favorite memory was everyone looking at the scrapbooks, I had only seen one picture of the Forciea grandparents, so it was really cool seeing who they were and there beautiful smiles on the pictures. Plus the ooohhhhsss and aaaahhhhhhssss were fun.

Lets see more to cover later:

Brewers Game
The Zoo
Downtown Milwaukee and the museum and library
....and soooo much more.

I love my Forciea Family!

With Love From Philly

Coming back to PA after 4 years I've really begun to realize how little memory I have...of anything. I think it comes from having to remember so many names in the family. :P Point being, I really need to write about this trip and the wonderful time Zach and I are having. We have been to Philadelphia, Washington D.C., and now Barnegat LBI, New Jersey. It's been a fun filled, horrendously tiring, absolutely wonderful experience. Not only have we seen incredible sites but, we have had a chance to really go on adventures, and learn more about each other. So here goes.... A journal of Zach and I's vacation back east.

I got to Philly on June 1st, around 11:45 at night, I wasn't flying with Zach because I came out 10 days early to take photos for my Aunt Joylyn and soon-to-be Uncle Paul. After sleeping 4 and a half hours I got back up and headed for the DC Temple with my Uncle Jeffry, and Aunt Dawnita. When Joylyn and Paul got out of the temple they both simple: glowed. He looked at her lovingly, she smiled more brightly then I've ever seen, and together they were a beautiful couple. I took them around the temple for pictures then we all had lunch. The following day I edited, printed, and framed some really beautiful pictures for them. (Proud niece that I am!) The following Saturday evening they had a wonderful reception. It was in the back of the Kline's house (My Aunt Jessica, and Uncle Eds) Uncle Jeffry put together an enormous cup-cake-cake, and Justin & Inc did the catering. There was cookies, sandwiches, cupcakes, and a random assortment of finger foods. Altogether everything went splendid, one of the ward sisters who was attending did trip on accident but it ended ok, seeing as my new Uncle Paul is a Doctor (currently interning, but soon to be official doctor.) I took pictures, and socialized. . . Most people when I introduced myself knew my mother and proceeded to tell me how cute I looked as a baby. Lol. :D After family gift opening, and tearful goodbyes the busy week was over. And I finally got some good sleep.

The next exciting thing to look forward was to ZACH ARRIVING. (Believe me, it was exciting!)

More to come.

Altogether Unsure

It's a beautiful thursday afternoon. and I'm awefully unsure of myself... or the future. I decided this week I want to become: and Ultrasound Tech, 3 more years of hard competitive school in front of me. So I am transfering to UVU, and taking more pre-reqs before I transfer to SLCC, for my DMS (diagnotic medical sonographer.) The biggest news is Zach is joining the Marines. He told me Tuesday, and it's not just a maybe, he is signed up for the ASVAB, and a full physical this weekend. I don't know what to think. I am happy he is moving forward with something he feels is right, but it's going to be tough. Probubly more so for him, but it's going to affect me as well. If he decided to go he would be going delayed entry reserves, leaving for bootcamp this October. He wouldn't be home for Christmas. Part of me wants to cry, and part of me wants to be happy. I've been doing the whole long distance thing for a while, but not without talking or seeing each other. Surviving bootcamp as the girlfriend is going to be rough. Hopefully Megan and I (my best friend from college) can live together, and help each other. (In otherwords, she helps me.) So here is too the future, and the changes to be made. :D

Update.

Hello hello!

Life is grand. It may take you in unexpected directions, but you still have to appreciate the adventure.

Good News:
-I recieved a full tuition scholarship to UVU! woot woot.
Bad News:
-I still have absolutely NO idea what I want to do with my life.

I do know I want to be: A mother, continue to do photography, a artist (Not a starving artist though.) More recently I have considered becoming a registered nurse. Only problem with this is 1stly-I'm afraid of hospitals. In all my life I have been to a hospital maybe 5 times. 2ndly-I'm not sure I want to take all the hard class, like Chemistry. I'm sure I can do great, but do I really have to take that class?
Other options I have considered:
-Teacher
-Going into Business Administration/Coordinating

What I do NOT want to do:
-Fast Food
-Major Sales Corporations: ie Walmart.
-Cleaning Jobs: (Other than the temporary one's and the one's involved with motherhood.)

In another direction:
My mother and I are training for a 10K. Her more than I. I just jog occasionally. Fortunatly I'm getting in good enough shape that I think given the whole month of may I will be able to run a 10 K pretty easily. Over spring break I almost got to 3 miles. Half way there. (A little under half way there.)
Goal: I want to be 160 lbs for my 20th birthday. That is the best gift I could give to me. (Emperors new groove: It's my birthday present from me! Oh I'm SOOO happy!)
Plus, if I can get down to 160 Zach has no choice but to buy me a digital and we are going to get proffesional pictures done. (Which he promised to do back during christmas! :P)

Goal: Figure out who I am.
Not as easy as it sounds. Sometimes I feel so lost in things like: Moral beliefs, Political Views, and Being ok with those decisions. Here in Utah it's hard figuring out what I believe. When I say one thing that I feel deep down is correct a lot of people disagree with me. It disgusts me that the generation I live in is so
Complacent: "Marked my self-satisfaction especially when accompained by unawarness of actual dangers or deficiencies."
So many of of us are willing to let politics, beliefs slide. The earth, the government, all are going to hell in a handbasket if the younger generation doesn't step in. The generation before us rallied against the wars, the decisions in school. We text, we don't buy gas for one day. Big whoop. Something needs to change.

...Thanks for listening. <3 you all!-Me